Introductions

So...here I am. It's funny actually, now that I am...I feel nervous, disjointed--out of my element. I've never really been comfortable with the idea of blogging (or at least the idea of myself blogging, really). It seems, well...scary. I mean, it's scary to confront my words, to accept their imperfections. I mean, I try for conversational...but it only becomes this hybrid pseudo-intellectual, awkwardly worded creature trying to shake your hand. 

Why hello...

Which brings me to my title: Greetings from Social Awkwardness (which even sounds a bit awkward itself, doesn't it?). I'll cut to the chase: I'm an awkward person. I have no social skills (well, maybe that's a bit of a stretch, but you get the picture) and very little confidence in myself.  I mean, even if I achieve all these great things--do x, y, and z-- I still feel inadequate, hollow even. I want to get a place in my life where I can accept who I am--where I can embrace my true persona. But herein lies my issue (or should I say everyone's issue): I'm not sure who I am.  I'm not sure how to present myself to the world, no less myself.  I can't adequately express myself--I have absolutely no sense of style; I'm a conglomeration of different shirts and pants...there's no flow. There's no me. What I really want is to find that flow, to find that sense of myself (wow, sounds a bit conceited now that I think about it...). Perhaps this will be my only entry, but maybe there's something more here--maybe I can finally become comfortable with blogging...maybe. By no means is this a personal shrine, rather an exploration. I seek closure and I seek to better my relationship with God. I seek purpose and I seek acceptance--I seek myself.